It threw me for a loop actually, because it’d been so long since I really noticed that I was “Content”. I wasn’t overly happy, or overly sad. I was content. Right were I was, with the people I was with, doing what I was doing.
It’s a magical feeling.
I didn’t feel like I was putting on a mask. I didn’t feel like I was working at feeling or acting a certain way. I was fully in the moment, accepting of myself and others around me, and it was FREEING.
Contentment is like a lot of other things.
Hard to describe unless you have a frame of reference. Like childbirth, or driving a car, or sky diving (I’m guessing on that one – I’ve never done it). If you don’t have any idea what it’s like, it’s difficult to describe to someone else.
When I stopped trying so hard, it came to me.
I’ve spent a shit ton of time in my life trying really hard to be what or who I thought others wanted me to be. I was trying desperately to be ‘part of’, when really, all I wanted was to feel comfortable with ME.
How can you stop trying so hard?
I’ve found that as a recovering perfectionist and control freak, it’s usually when we stop trying to perfect and control that the thing we wanted just comes to us. I’ve heard it happening with relationships, and I’ve experienced it with creative expressions (writing, scrap booking, etc) as well. How can you stop trying SO hard?
There is peace in acceptance, and contentment.
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