AKA – Betrayal

So, we’ve all experienced betrayal at some point.  It could be as simple as your friend picking someone else for the dodge ball game, or as complicated as adultery.  When the rubber hits the road, betrayal sucks.

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I thought it was the job of my dreams

I thought I was being groomed for a certain position at my job.  I’ve been there for 17 years, and thought I was “next in line”.  I wasn’t told when the application process opened.  I was not given the choice to apply or not as I’d been told.  I’m grateful now.  I realize I’ve outgrown that place of employment.

I can’t just quit.

Oh how I would love it if I could just put in my notice and jump full time into this blog and coaching business!!  Alas, adulting has it’s drawbacks.  Especially when you’re a parent!  There’s lots of responsibilities that come with adulting.  And stuff like a mortgage, vehicle payments, and other costs of living, and keeping and raising a household.  I did go down to 32 hours a week though, so that gives me a few extra hours to devote to this – my passion.

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So don’t give up.

Sometimes our dreams are buried so deep under pain and disconnect that we have to be reminded.  It took me taking a leap of faith, getting a scholarship for a personal development course called “Claim Your Power” by Mastin Kipp, and realizing that if the universe was going to support me, I have to do my part too.  I took out a loan to go to Los Angeles (Marina del Ray) and had an absolutely life-altering experience.  I met my tribe, realized I have so much more to give the world thru my story, and that I have the power to choose how I see my past and how I develop my future.

And guess what – so do you.

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So that’s my story – well, parts of it anyway.

Holy crap, if I wrote my whole life story, it’d be like 54566426 parts.  I’ve also tried to be sensitive to friends and family who may be reading 🙂  I’ve figured out that everyone involved in any given situation has their truth.  Not right or wrong, just their perspective.

And now my goal is to use my experience to help other women thru coaching.   To help them see what’s on the other side.  Until I invested in myself (I had a coach too!) I didn’t feel worthy of investing in.  It was difficult, to justify spending money on me, when there were bills to be paid, etc.  But we can not pour from empty cups, and until we learn to fill ourselves, we will constantly be trying to give what we don’t have.

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What did you think?  I’d love to hear your thoughts, comments, etc.  Email me at erin@beautifulmesslife.com or find me on facebook – Or, simply leave a comment here.  I read every one of them!

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